The Republic of T.

Black. Gay. Father. Vegetarian. Buddhist. Liberal.

Mid-Blog Crisis

You may have noticed things have slowed down here a bit. There was no QueerlyKos this weekend, because I wasn’t able to find time to finish writing it. It’s sitting, half-written, on my desktop, and I think by the time I find time to actually write it most of what’s in it won’t be news anymore anyway.

Time. That’s my big bugaboo right now. There’s not enough of it. What there is of it is caught in a tug of war between “what I have to to” and “what I want to do,” which a becoming increasingly different things. Right now, the former is winning the battle and the latter is running out of rope. There’s more stuff I have to do, and more stuff that I want to do, but less time for the latter.

There’s less time for what I want to do, as opposed to what I have to do, including blogging. It’s getting harder and harder to do it the way that I want to. By the time I have the time to actually sit down to read and see what’s going on in the world, the news has been pretty much flogged to death by everyone else. So, if I want to post something other than a rehashing of what’s already been said, I have to read even more, and write even more than I would otherwise, in an attempt to at least provide some analysis that even a little unique.

That comes back to time. Most of the posts here in the last couple of weeks have been written at night and scheduled to post the following day, after I’ve spent several hours reading, researching and writing. That means that most nights I don’t turn in until 2:00 AM. Physically, and psychically, that’s not something I think I can keep up for much longer.

Last night, I gave up and went to bed. I can’t honestly say there will be much posted here today as a result. And maybe not tomorrow either, or the day after that. And though QueerlyKos has been rewarding to do and the response has been great, I seriously doubt I’ll have time to do it anymore, even though I want do.

I expect soon that what I have to do will completely overtake what I want to do, and they’ll still be two separate things.

So, when I finally get to the point where I’m only doing what I have to do, and none of what I want to do, what do I do?

I’ve got to spend some time figuring that out.

If I can find the time, that is.


  1. Terrance: have you thought of passing Queerlykos off? It is a valuable service, even if you can’t be the one to provide it.

  2. I was about to leave the same comment as Lorin, who beat me to it. Finding someone else to do QueerlyKos when you couldn’t would indeed be useful. One other way you might consider sharing the burden, though, is to find a group of folks who could take turns every week to compile it, making it into a blog carnival. As the originator, you could retain the right to step in and do it any week you had time and inclination.

  3. Since I have been having the same problem in my life, I can only give you the same advice I’m trying to give to myself and that is to take care of yourself — let some things go, get some rest, take some time to do something relaxing and pleasant — I know it’s easier said than done!!

  4. I know that song all to well . It seems to be that taking care of
    YOU , and that which affects you the most , is the best we can hope for . The modern worlds demands are more than any mortal can meet . Enough I think to retain a smile , an easy heart , and some freedon from pressing work . Let the rest fall as it may . You , and your life buyoancy ( ? ) are the most necessary , to meet all the other things that come your way .
    May the Creator honor your life efforts .

  5. Take a break T and come back stronger. The world needs your voice. Jill

  6. How about making Queerykos a community project with say 5 or 6 people you trust and each week a different person is scheduled to post for that week?

    Time, time….Never enough time. Welcome to adulthood!