Time. That’s my big bugaboo right now. There’s not enough of it. What there is of it is caught in a tug of war between “what I have to to” and “what I want to do,” which a becoming increasingly different things. Right now, the former is winning the battle and the latter is running out of rope. There’s more stuff I have to do, and more stuff that I want to do, but less time for the latter.
There’s less time for what I want to do, as opposed to what I have to do, including blogging. It’s getting harder and harder to do it the way that I want to. By the time I have the time to actually sit down to read and see what’s going on in the world, the news has been pretty much flogged to death by everyone else. So, if I want to post something other than a rehashing of what’s already been said, I have to read even more, and write even more than I would otherwise, in an attempt to at least provide some analysis that even a little unique.
That comes back to time. Most of the posts here in the last couple of weeks have been written at night and scheduled to post the following day, after I’ve spent several hours reading, researching and writing. That means that most nights I don’t turn in until 2:00 AM. Physically, and psychically, that’s not something I think I can keep up for much longer.
Last night, I gave up and went to bed. I can’t honestly say there will be much posted here today as a result. And maybe not tomorrow either, or the day after that. And though QueerlyKos has been rewarding to do and the response has been great, I seriously doubt I’ll have time to do it anymore, even though I want do.
I expect soon that what I have to do will completely overtake what I want to do, and they’ll still be two separate things.
So, when I finally get to the point where I’m only doing what I have to do, and none of what I want to do, what do I do?
I’ve got to spend some time figuring that out.
If I can find the time, that is.