This isn’t anything but an honest question. Should I shut this blog down?
I ask because the realities of my life are such that — no matter how much I want to do it — writing is one of the last things I get to do. My morning are always taken up by the same routine, which is basically about four hours of this.
During which I read a lot of stuff, much of which starts me thinking about stuff that I want to write about. After which, I’m mentally drained from the repetitiveness of the task and the frustration of not having the to write about any of the stuff percolating in my brain. (Oh, I should add that I get to be on conference calls with people who job it is to write, talking about the stuff they’re going to write about that day. Lately, I hang up halfway through and just go back to my ongoing copy-paste routine. I don’t think anybody notices. Puts me in the mood to watch Amadeus again.)
Then I go to lunch. Then come back, and take care of whatever has landed on my desk. Then I start reading and compiling the stuff I’ll have to copy and paste the next day. Or I go to a meeting where laptops are not allowed.
Then I go home. On the train, might attempt to do some reading or writing of my own., have dinner, play with the kids, put them to bed and talk to the hubby. Then, then I finally have time to do the reading or writing I want to do. And, of course, physical exhaustion sets in, and I have to give it up and go to bed. (Because I’ve got to do it all over again the next day.)
Thus, if I do write more than a couple of paragraphs about something, it takes me several days. In the meantime, I get to find out during my morning routine how many other people have already written about it, and that I no longer have much to add.
So I don’t post much here. Or anywhere, really. I wondered today if it’s time for me to give up this blog. I still have posting privileges at Pams, Booman, Bilerico, and the Huffington Post. But it wouldn’t be the same as having a place of my own where I wan post whatever I want.
On the other hand, how much time to I have to post here? (I’m already late for the train and the rest of my evening, and it’ll be at least three hours more before I have time to read or write anything.)